thoughts of a dying atheist

have you ever wanted to question God? i'm not talking about questions like, "Hey God, why is there murder and rape if you really love us?" i'm talking about comin some tough questions - along the lines of doubts and challenges.

I remember that The West Wing had an episode where the President spoke to God in a Cathedral, after his best friend died.

"I give thanks to you, O Lord. Am I really to believe that these are the acts of a loving God? A just God? A wise God? To hell with your punishments. I was your servant here on Earth. And I spread your word and I did your work. To hell with your punishments. To hell with you!"

shocked?well so was i. but President had a point, just that shouting to hell with God, isn't exactly cool.

i can't continue with this post. it wouldn't be right.

but i have lost faith.

i have seriously lost it. and my nights just got lonelier.